Cold

A ripple for every moment

Frigid sky scattered here and there. Shadows watch mountains who are not easily scared. Snowflakes fall as time stands still, while sun's warmth trembles under the treacherous chill. Depths run thin as the ice grows, and blue meets white in the blue shallow. Everything covered perfectly in a blanket, one that is cold and doesn't need to fake it.

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I've struggled with my words the past week or two, to write a post that will intrigue all of you. The last few months I have become comfortable. Comfortable enough that I wasn't be challenged physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. I was comfortable with my living arrangements, by taking advantage of my parents. I was comfortable with the friends that I had and didn't have, knowing which ones would be there and which ones wouldn't. I was comfortable with my girlfiend, feeling like nothing could separate us. I was comfortable with sin, because it was so easy and addicting. I was comfortable with my faith, regressing back to a lifestyle I had many years ago. And I was comfortable for one instant, one... when a lie slipped out of my mouth. It was the instant after that instant, when everything felt uncomfortable.

I think it is very easy for people to become comfortable with the life they are living. Comfortable living with the people that they are close to, the people that they work with, and even with people they may not even know so well. Many believe that if you trust in God you will live a peaceful, quiet, and comfortable life. However, in the many Sundays I've spent worshipping Him, I've come to learn that our life here on this Earth is not supposed to be comfortable. In fact, it is supposed to be incredibly uncomfortable. Because, we are at war with ourselves, with our friends, with our families, with our signifcant others, and with all the evil things in this world. The only thing we should be comfortable about is knowing that God loves us and is looking out for us. And sometimes, that can also feel uncomfortable. Because how are we supposed to believe that there is a God when everything else down here is so messed up, when we're so messed up, when our friends are so messed up, when our boyfriend or girlfriend is so messed up, when we have so much baggage and so much weight on our hearts, that we can't even find the right words or the right actions at the right times. No, God didn't give us a life that is supposed to be easy, He gave us a life that is supposed to be challenging. He wanted to challenge us to find the good in the world... and after finding it, He wants us to spread it to everyone else around us.

I can say that I was comfortable with the life I was living. But once life became uncomfortable, I started searching for answers. Answers for myself, answers for my friends, answers for my girlfriend, and answers for God. Because you can lie to yourself and say that you are messed up. You can sit and think that you are just another average person and that you are no different than any other guy or girl. But God, He didn't make us average people. He made us extraordinary people. And if we think that this is the best that it gets, we are so wrong. Because God has given us great gifts and great talents. We need to use them, not abuse them.

So I'm challenging all of you to find what is comfortable in your life. If something feels comfortable, than something probably isn't quite right. From what I've learned from relationships, the ones that mean the most to me are ones that are awkard at times and ones where disagreements occur. And those relationships could be with your friends, your significant other, your family, or even with God. I challenge you to just take a look at that, not for me... but for God.

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