Cold

A ripple for every moment

Frigid sky scattered here and there. Shadows watch mountains who are not easily scared. Snowflakes fall as time stands still, while sun's warmth trembles under the treacherous chill. Depths run thin as the ice grows, and blue meets white in the blue shallow. Everything covered perfectly in a blanket, one that is cold and doesn't need to fake it.

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I turned my heart upside down and poured it out, but I missed the glass and dropped it on the floor. It didn't break, I think. Things are going to be ok.

Before lunch yesterday... I had only had 6 bowls of cereal, 1 white cocoa, and 1 turtle mocha in the last 24 hours. When I got to lunch, I knew I was hungry. But all that went away with nervousness and anxiety as it usually does when I'm looking into her eyes. But I got it all out, that was the important thing.

I told her how I felt, but not before I knew how she felt. She felt the same way I did, uncertain. I found myself exploring uncertainity and hoping she would go with me. And just before we departed from the dreary Champ's atmosphere, I felt like she finally understood me. For once, she knew what was actually going on upstairs. And that is all I wanted from yesterday.

I'm still sitting at that crossroads though, just sitting. I need to sit for a little while.

So tonight, after a test I was incredibly under-prepared for, I want to drink something. Just something to let me loose for an hour or two. But I don't think I can, because I have another test tomorrow.

Wish me luck, cause this beating, is going to be a good one :)

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