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Monday
The 3rd of October, 2005 at 09:35 PM
The remainder of the weekend went on as uncharacteristically as the beginning. I woke up sunday morning in pain. It felt like someone had taken an aluminum bat and hit me across the face. My jaw was sore all day. I still don't know why.
I went to Genesis after that. I cried. I think I cried more this last week than I had all summer. I worry.
I went home and finished the painting on the front of our house. We have large wooden frames around our front windows. This means someone (me) needs to go on the roof with a ladder. So I went on the roof with a 15' ladder and started painting. Finished one board. On the second board, the ladder decided to slide out from underneath me. Thankfully it lodged in the gutter as I skillfully jumped off it onto the roof. Near death experience I guess, I didn't think much of it. All I heard below me was my dad, "Shit." Followed by, "Look what you did to the gutter." So I really don't know if he was worried about me falling off the roof or more worried about the gutter. I think it was about me, I hope.
I decided to go for a run. This decision could have very well been a mistake for reasons that are still going to go unmentioned. I ran about seven and a half miles at my typical pace. I ran hard though, I just had alot on my mind.
I am beginning to set up camp in caribou. I've spent the last couple nights there. I finished some studying and rewrote my epidemiology assignment. I also wrote some more lines of poetry but was unable to conclude anything that I have started.
I couldn't sleep last night. I never have trouble sleeping so this was brand new to me. I woke up at 3:45 in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep. At six o' clock I gave up and started moving. I guess that is why I'm tired now. I've been running on auxillary all day. Not good. I have so much to do this week, so much to look forward to. It's just too much to think about right now. I have a test tomorrow. Good night world.
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Nik
October 4th, 09:11:22 AM
*hug* I can understand the not being able to sleep thing. It sucks! It also creates a desire to skip all your classes and lay in bed while listening to the rain pattering on the window...this I did not do, even though I would have loved to do so.
Things will get better, John. Chin up, shoulders back, walk tall. Best of luck this semester with all that cruddy homework, and perhaps I’ll join you for one of these Caribou campings soon.
PS—> You weren’t bugging me the other night. I’m used to crazy John. Don’t change who you are for anyone, regardless of how tempting it may seem.
John
October 4th, 05:45:54 PM
Surprisingly, I got sleep last night. And not one dream, which has been a nightly habit of mine. I don’t know what’s up with that.
The rain is awesome. I didn’t get to run in it, but I wanted to. I played basketball in it when I got home. I was completely drenched, two of my neighbors asked me if I noticed it was raining. I love the rain though. It washes everything away.
I don’t plan to change either. I like who I am and no one will change that. That would be lying to myself. I don’t lie.
Mellie
October 4th, 05:53:47 PM
Hmmmm. I’m sorry things aren’t going well for you. I agree, maybe you shouldn’t have gone running. But you were able to post so who knows. I’m going crazy wondering about what’s going on.
And sorry you couldn’t sleep, but remember what I said last night and you shouldn’t have to worry about that anymore.
Don’t forget you’ve always got love raining down on you from up here in Duluth. Steve and I will precipitate together.
alex
October 4th, 07:45:33 PM
i like this design.
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