Now I Feel Bad
Wave 542
Wednesday
The 24th of November, 2004 at 01:53 PM
So now I feel bad. No one has really said anything I just do. I talked about my friends and how much they mean to me, but I left the best friends to flap out in the wind. I mean, isn't it enough to know that your my best friend? Lol, right, ok.
Friends:
Your closest ones: *sighs* Chris, Alex, Steve, Maria, Jill, Matt Pet., Leah, Matt Presta., Stef.
I read that line as your best friends. Those are truly the people that comprise that list. I would like to say a few words about them, because they deserve a place here.
Chris. Wow, well... ok. I was never the most talkative kid in school, I think this is still true because most could still attest to it. Anyways, in 11th grade I met Chris. We had a history. In elementary school I used to make fun of him all the time and he would ask his friend (slave basically), Paul, to help chase after me and beat me up. They never could catch me, but it was good fun. We basically were enemies. In 11th grade that all changed. Band was the class. Tannahill was awesome, we would play for half the period (30 mins) and get to slack off the rest of it. I began talking with Chris and found out he was really funny. We had our laughs. Pretty soon some girls accompanied us. We soon had a close-knit pack of friends which we dubbed, "The Group." All of us grew to know each other better and trust each other more. Chris and I grew to be very strong friends. There wasn't one thing on my mind he didn't know. He knew everything about me and still does. I have always trusted him and he has always been there. He is an awesome friend and I would never want anything to happen to him.
Alex. Alex and I go back a ways. I first met him through Matt. We would play basketball and other neighborhood sports. Alex always seemed to be the first one to fall and the quickest to get back up. I loved that about him. Over the past couple years Alex and I grew closer. I started talking to him about my personal life (Emily 1... and 2... lol). He was actually the first person I talked to regarding Emily 2. I needed to get everything off my chest. I had this pent up crush for like 8 months and couldn't hold it to myself any longer. Alex was always a good listener and was there when I needed him. We have grown apart a bit in the past couple months due to school and the confines of it, but I still consider us best friends. I always enjoy our runs, our conversations, and our crazy ideas. Nothing will change his place in my heart.
Steve. There isn't too much more I can say except that he is my brother. I never talked to Steve about personal stuff. It just felt weird, him knowing all the stuff I thought and did. He, like Chris, knows everything about me. Steve knows me so well that he could end most of my sentences, I'm just that predictable. Over the past year or so, Steve and I have grown alot closer. Part of this had to do with our growth in faith. We would talk for long periods of time about the bible, God, and what we thought. I loved these talks. There is nothing better than feeling perfectly comfortable about being open, especially to your close family. I can't say that I would never forget him as a friend because well, he is my brother... but I just wanted him to know... the thought is there.
Jill. Hey JILL! Yeah, we've come along way. Jill is the office manager at my dad's animal hospital. From me calling her the b-word to her yelling, "I wish you would fall on the concrete and split your head open..." I guess I didn't leave the best first impression when I was back-lashing to my dad, and she didn't leave the best either, by responding that she would slap me if she was my father. Good times, good times. Years went by and we became less hostile towards each other. Over the past year I have come to know her on a more personal level and vice versa. I am very close to her and her family and she is likewise to mine. I found myself talking to her about my personal life, something I don't do all too often, or didn't until this year. She listened well and was able to relate most of the time. I don't like mixing work with my personal life, but there was something different about me talking to her. I completely trusted her, I knew every word that came out of my mouth would stay safe in hers. She has always been there for me and I want her to know that I will always be here for her. You are awesome Jill.
Matt Pett. *thinking of what to say* Ok, here it goes. Two weeks ago I had a little chat with Matt at his bible study. I have always considered Matt a close friend but not one of my best for one reason. Matt has trouble keeping things to himself. I'm not the kind of kid who likes his personal life circulating around him like a whirlwind... so I was reluctant at first to talk to him about this stuff. But Matt understands now after our little talk, how I feel, and how I like to keep things about me secret. This was the only thing hindering the awesome friendship we have right now. I have told him a great deal about my personal life as of late and I trust him to keep it safe. I will always be here for his own problems as I always have. I am proud of him. He has come along way down winding roads, but he has finally found something he has loved and he shouldn't let anything stand in his way. I enjoy the bible studies he hosts and I get more out of them than I ever could imagine. Matt is one of my closest homet0wn friends, and I am so grateful for him.
Leah. I've known Leah since like February but I've really only known her since August. From the Wave Pool to work, Leah and I have become rather tight friends. I have told her about a number of my personal life issues and I know she will keep them safe. She is a great friend and always has been around when I needed to talk. We got to know each other a lot better at work, on the phone, and unfortunately over AIM... which she hates. She is one of the most outgoing people I know, and isn't afraid to say what she thinks. I know she will be a good friend of mine for a long time, if not forever.
Matt Presta. Oh, where to start! Well let's start from the beginning. He is my first friend. Steve and I were riding our Tonka trucks down the street and he was walking up it and we stopped, "Hey, want to be friends?" And that is how it all started. awwww. From the adventures with Matty to the battle in the kennels, Matt and I have an iron-clad friendship. I have always said don't mix your friends with work, well Matt is the golden exception. We get along awesome and I wouldn't trade a minute of my time with him. I have come to tell him alot about my life and I completely trust him. I couldn't think of what I would do without Matt in my life. *bird cry*
Stefanie. This is probably deserves a longer story, but for sake of simplicity, we are going to truncate it. Stef and Chris went out from 11th grade to the middle of 12th grade. Over the time we knew each other I grew fond of both of them. The breakup was difficult for everyone and I was kindof the middle man. I heard what Stef had to say and what Chris had to say. Out of the smoke I made two new friends. It was a difficult end to the senior year but we made it. There really is no residual anger between either of them and we comfortably can all spend time together at Caribou or watching a movie. I found myself talking to Stef alot about my relationships and everything else. I talked to her about Emily when she got on my nerves and she talked to me about her own. We grew to be great friends in the end. I always will remember what Ms. Beatty (Von Ruden) said. "After highschool you won't remember any of your friends, I don't." Shows what you know VON RUDEN! Stef and I still get over to Caribou when she comes back home. We have conversations that last for hours. I always look forward to the holidays cause its a chance to spend some time with her. Won't forget ya Stef!
There is only one last person. Maria. We have had our ups and downs, but there is nothing better to create a strong friendship. I have more to say, but to Maria's request, I will not be including it in this post. I just want her to know that she is one of my best friends and I will always be here to listen or to pound on. Yeah...
So I feel better. I didn't want to say all these great things about all my friends and just leave everyone else out. So that is it. That is that Mattress Man! It has come to my attention (Thank you Jamie), that there are some notable errors here and there. Hopefully I will have the issues resolved within the next 12 hours. Have a good night everyone. Oh, check for a poetry update later this evening.
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