It's Me
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Wednesday
The 10th of November, 2004 at 07:01 AM
I’ve come to a solid conclusion that there is something wrong with me. With everything that happens I have done something wrong. And I feel like crap.
It’s from some movie… “It’s like God said, “There you are, I’ve been looking for you.” And then from Bruce… God is just a mean kid with a magnifying glass. And I'm the ant. He could fix my life in five minutes if He wanted to, but he'd rather tear of my feelers and watch me squirm. But no. I know better than that. It’s just that everything has been going like crap.
It doesn’t help any when I get out of my car and it just begins to rain when I step out. Or when I walk into the ansci/vet med building and the lights go out. It’s just been a great morning!
Or overnight I have nightmares. Like there are giant wood ticks crawling up my legs and I can’t get rid of all them. I keep picking them off and but I’m not fast enough. I just haven’t been able to get sleep… good sleep. I’ve got plenty of sleep but when I wake up I’m still tired. It’s like my brain doesn’t stop thinking about things when I fall asleep and I’m still tired when I wake up. I wish I could just go to sleep dead.
I listen to music. I drive around. In hopeless attempt to calm myself down. But that doesn’t help me either… at all.
For sake of completeness I will include the recent song playlist. I don’t suggest obtaining any of them.
Our Lady Peace – Innocent
MxPx – Quit Your Life
Hoobastank – The Reason
Howie Day – She Says
Alter Bridge – Open Your Eyes
Edwin McCain – I’ll Be
I don’t think I’ve ever made it to the end of these two.
Lifehouse – Take Me Away (Acoustic)
Alter Bridge – Down To My Last
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