A Dream
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Saturday
The 17th of January, 2004 at 09:36 PM
A Dream I've had since I can't even remember, is starting to come true. Sadly enough, I almost feel like I would rather wake up instead of live it. I received a letter from the U of M a few days back. I didn't even know I received it till just yesterday. I opened it, between my running around. I found that out of 653 applicants, they asked 200 for interviews. I got an interview. Out of those 200, they will select 90 people for entering the class. If all goes as should go, I will get in to vet school next year. This would also mean I would need to take the rather hefty load I have spring semester right now. I also would need to take physics every day during the summer. The class is in the morning so it isn't too bad, but I can't take a vacation at all. I am disappointed in this respect and the breaking of my rule that "Summer is summer, I will never take school in summer." Well, here I go folks. All this assuming I get in. Wishful thinking isn't it. Nonetheless, I was nervous, anxious, relieved, excited and surprised I was asked for this interview. Supposedly it will be sometime during the beginning of Februrary. Just more to add to my already stressful life. I don't know if I can take all of this. It feels like so much already...
Then the channels flip and we are back to an approaching season of lectures and labs. I've been told varying opinions regarding the difficulty of my classes. Hopefully the opinions related to the simplicity of the course prevail. It helps to know that I know at least one person in my classes. There are times when I look forward to this new spring semester. What it could bring me, what it could offer. Other times I wish I was still on the christmas break recession from reality. I guess you can't turn the hands of the clock so we just have to sit and watch them spin instead. See if we truly can get dizzy as it passes so quickly by our eyes. But I have two days and two nights left, before the mornings become an average morning and the nights become more average nights. My tuesdays and thursdays will be my long days. I'm looking forward to my monday, wednesday and fridays. Only one class which is nice, but all my free time should be devoted to homework, should. I will be working three shifts rather than two this semester to help me in my apparent lack of funds for this semester. I don't know how I will gather up money by next fall. This is insane.
My nights have been personless more or less, with the exception of last night. It was kindof nice to have what shayla calls, "Human contact." Mike, her and I spent some quality ddr time at maplewood mall. I was astonished at the lack of competition there on a friday night. Mike, Shayla and I put on a good show. I returned some pants from x-mas at one point and at another we all bought some ice cream. It was good times. We played some texas hold 'em later (with Chris M) where I lost for the first time. A dollar, Mike cleaned everyone up. Regardless it was an interesting night at Mike's house.
As I was saying, my nights have been rather lonely. I've spent them watching tv, playing video games *but not as much the past couple*, and chatting on the computer. I've been listening to more music during the past few days also. Some songs have peaked my interest. As you already know, or should at least, I posted some Rufus Wainwright lyrics on my last post. This post will be devoted to a song I've been listening to over and over. I will post them at the end to conserve reading space. I've also listened to Fuel - Falls Down On Me a bit which is also a good song.
Other than all this, my life has been quite the same as usual. You guys probably didn't have to read the site to conclude this. As I sit here now, I wonder if people are playing ddr at Richard's house. I wonder because Justin's car has been there for quite some time. I know it is their family times together but with ddr, a wide screen tv, and two ddr pads I consider good... I'm sure it will not be unseen. It's ok though, I'm dressed for bed and my foot seems to be acting up again.
Well, I'm running out of stuff to put on today's post. I could talk about today's work circumstances which were rather interesting. But I feel my preaching about work bores many of you. I will just say to the people who know: Jenn, John S. were working together. This makes for a very... interesting team for a saturday technician schedule. Especially with my dad working. It was a very very busy morning in which I felt like I was the only one holding my self-control at a very steady level. Orange level in other words... maybe its green.. or blue. Yes, John has a stress level indicator, by colors and sometimes shapes.
So the lyrics:
Evanescence - My Immortal (Or Band Version)
my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
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